Sacred to Death, but I gotta do something new!

The company I work for was bought recently....

The new company made us a deal, stay with them a few months and if we didn't like it we would be eligible for a one time separation payment based on what our severance from the old company would have been or stay with them an entire year and get a big retention bonus.

My separation payment is about $32 thousand dollars
My retention payment would be about $43 thousand dollars

But be staying with them I am losing about $1000 a month paying for my families insurance... so it's kind of a wash (The old company was actually one of those incredible employers who paid my entire families medical insurance cost, the new company only pays for  me and the difference is actually $1000 a month).

The thing is, I had to decide this week whether to stay or walk away, but I won't get the money from the separation until July 11th.

Well, I gave my notice. Tomorrow is the last day to retract it and I'm scared...

But I gotta change. I gotta have faith in the universe.

I want to get out of the oil field. I want to get out of West Texas. I really want to move to St. Louis. Real Estate prices are crazy here.... I might be able to sell my place, pay off the mortgage (and an FHA lien) and get into a place on the outskirts of the city with cash. My credit is horrible, so that's my only real hope.

I'm in love with a place I have never been. My family deserves better then here.

I wan't a normal job. I want to get up on stage again. I want my children to grow up in a place where they could do anything and where they can be anyone.

But I'm scared

This is my inspiration - Get Up by Shinedown 

It all has to go right from here!

Claptrap!

I always wanted business cards that had "Pagan God" listed as my occupation. Or maybe "Master of Ceremonies" I never did get any though. Maybe someday. I also always wanted my own soundtrack.

Anyway, I'm a 50-year-old man in Midland Texas. I live on a small 5-acre homestead that we should be farming at least a little bit, but we aren't. We do have chickens and ducks, and more eggs then we could ever eat. I also work in the oil fields of West Texas driving 18 wheelers. I have three kids and a wonderful wife that I do not appreciate nearly enough. I'm not really being interesting enough to hold your attention yet though I'd guess.

It will get interesting though... at least I think it will. So a couple fast facts about me.

1. At one time I wanted to be a preacher (now a humanist and an atheist and one of the few people I know who has read the bible cover to cover). 
2. Since that time I've been a DJ at a topless club (but I'm still a supporter of everyone's civil and vehemently believe you don't do anything to anyone without permission).
3. I used to run a comedy website called The Parody Pages (You will see things from it in this blog I'm sure).
4. I would love to run for Congress. I just told you my skeletons so it'd be hard to use them against me. Unless they can use bad credit against you, I have that too.
5. I'd also love to be an actor or a voice-over artist.
6. I have and try to follow a strict moral code of ethics.
7. I don't think I could be bought ever, but I'm sure most politicians thought that when they started out.
8. I love Six Flags and theme parks more than most people.
9. I think Barrack Obama will go down in history as one of the greatest presidents we have ever had, and not just because he broke the color barrier.
10. I won't give up without a fight (although my wife had to remind me of that today).

I got this blog months ago simply because I thought "Dramatic Renewal of Purpose" would be a really cool sounding name for a blog. Then it's sat here for months while I tried to figure out what to do with it.

I think I'm going to use it for my mid-life crisis.  Which I think is starting now...