The new company made us a deal, stay with them a few months and if we didn't like it we would be eligible for a one time separation payment based on what our severance from the old company would have been or stay with them an entire year and get a big retention bonus.
My separation payment is about $32 thousand dollars
My retention payment would be about $43 thousand dollars
But be staying with them I am losing about $1000 a month paying for my families insurance... so it's kind of a wash (The old company was actually one of those incredible employers who paid my entire families medical insurance cost, the new company only pays for me and the difference is actually $1000 a month).
The thing is, I had to decide this week whether to stay or walk away, but I won't get the money from the separation until July 11th.
Well, I gave my notice. Tomorrow is the last day to retract it and I'm scared...
But I gotta change. I gotta have faith in the universe.
I want to get out of the oil field. I want to get out of West Texas. I really want to move to St. Louis. Real Estate prices are crazy here.... I might be able to sell my place, pay off the mortgage (and an FHA lien) and get into a place on the outskirts of the city with cash. My credit is horrible, so that's my only real hope.
I'm in love with a place I have never been. My family deserves better then here.
I wan't a normal job. I want to get up on stage again. I want my children to grow up in a place where they could do anything and where they can be anyone.
But I'm scared
This is my inspiration - Get Up by Shinedown
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